~siCK~

I m sooo siCk.. Been sick fer a long long time ler.. Almost a month ler.. haiz.. Cant seem to get well. I m feeling horrible.. terrible n everyting.. Kinda feel tt life sux. I m kinda stressed out again.. by everyting.. Arrgh! I juz wana b hapi.. Is it so hard? =( haiz.. Juz wished tt i can get thru this two yrs fast fast.. Forget everyting n leave singapore.. I guess.. i wun be cuming back after tt.. Bad memories.. I dun wana be reminded of.. Haiz.. =( Hey pplz.. if u see me walking ard lifelessly.. Dun wory.. I m juz struggling to stay alive. I m kinda falling back into depression.. This sux.. haish

No update on my life.. Everyting sux.. IF God hafta take awae sumone.. I wished it to be me.. than him..

~sAd..sadD.. saDdeSt bdaEe of aLL=(

Okay.. My bdae this year sux.. ttz all i can sae.. Saddening huh? hmm.. well.. i din celebrate much.. Nth memorable enuff to be recorded here.. Hmm.. But then again.. thanks to the pple whu wished me..=) the list is as follows..( in the order that they wished me).. thanks dear.. thanks ben.. thanks sharmila..thanks yvonne.. thanks ade.. thanks latifah.. thanks suhui (she called me n played a happi bdae songfor me on the spot.. so touched).. thanks esther..thanks panda.. thanks junhao.. thanks mogu.. thanks aHHHHhh lonG=P.. thanks khaiboon..thanks raine=) haha.. i tink ttz abt it.. i m a pathetic soul.. but thanks pplz=) Okay.. now for my dae..

Went to sch early in the morn.. For econs lessons.. Dear crashed the lesson with the permission of ms kat.. haha. then my klassmates were lyke.. "cuz itz her bdae todae..so crashers are allowed" haha.. Diao.. The lessons were okay lah.. learnt sumting. ahah okay.. then.. went to wait for everyone to gather.. Oright.. the stupid organisation team were walking so slowly behind.. while me n other heads walked in front.. then zav ccalled us to slow down.. wat the..

Then..went to the mrt station.. they were still deciding how to go thru the routes.. my god lorh.. i wus freakingpissed! itz lyke they were supposed to haf done it long time ago.. n our purpose wus to haf a tryout.. hmm.. then our first stop.. the stupid OG team.. forogt to check whether the food wus halal or not.. arrgh u can imagine how pised i m.. how stupi can one b? second stop.. the task wus to drink bitter tea.. suddenly the og team stopped after roaming and asked if i noe of ane place gt seel the tea.. ahhh.. iw us sick n tired.. n itz my bdae..=( other stops oso the same..=( oh yar.. then got one stop wus opp a main n busy road.. FULL OF CARS.. n as everyone noes i haf a phobia for crossing busy roads.. i stood ther for a long long time.. dear accompanied me..but end up i decided to take the overhead bridge.. the OG team wus luffing awae.. Okay.. ppl.. u mae luff at me.. but.. rmb if aneting happens..whu is to be blamed..? n maeb.. i wld be standing ther n luffing at ur stupidity when u lay ther half dead.. Itz not funnie.. itz the worst wae of dying.. So ppl ( i m refering to the OG team).. if u eva die ther.. dun expect me to help.. for i mite b evil enuff to juz luff at u..

Alright.. i m evil i noe.. but at least i m nt stupid..=) okay.. that wus how my dae went.. nth more..=( saddening.. i had to put up wif such stupidity n anger on my bdae.. this reali sux..=(

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Todae.. my klaz pplz helped me celebrate my bdae.. haha.. wif ms lee of cuz.. itz my honour manz.. =D thanks 05A07 =D hmm.. wel.. then me n evon decided tt on tues we will buy each other a slice of cake n celebrate tgr.. Heez.. kinda idiotic? bleah i dun care.. i luv it=D haha..

Juz received my third pressie.. itz kinda unique.. Very nice in fact.. i reali wana thank the person whu did it all for me.. thanks=) i love it..n in fact.. i m very touched by ur act.. thanks.. itz a great piece.. if oni.. u wld giv me the lyrics.. n sing it for me..=) thanks anewae..

Gotta go.. i reali hafta slp man.. tml gonna b a long n stupid dae..=(

4 daes...* i ain looking forward anemore* =_(

See my title? Haiz.. i m no longer looking forward to my bdae ler=,( Sum ppl is too busy to be bothered.. Reali sad lorh.. ARRGH! *hmmph* Fine! i shall find jer instead.. Hmm.. Todae had napfa.. redo my 2.4km.. wahahaha... i gt 14.19mins.. hmm.. gt improvement... but still nt satisfied=( besides.. haiz.. dear wusnt even bothered to be happy for me.. arrgh!

Wah seh.. jC life reali sucky lorh.. got so much stupid proj work tingy de.. Can die arh.. i hafta go do my GPP ler.. wad de.. No time to sleep ler..=( Alright.. take care pplz=) nItez ~xIN

uPdate..*countiNg dOwn tO...5 days more*

Hmm.. updating again.. Got back two tests todae.. hmm.. i got 7/10 for maths.. n 17/20 for econs.. n Guess wat? i din study =D haha.. bleah.. hmm.. I m slowly improving=) hMm.. But then again.. recently, reali feeling down.. duno watz wrong.. =( Been crying aLot.. haiz.. I am gona be dehydrated of my tears soon..hmm.. sad.. todae.. on the bus wif landy n gang.. wus tearing lorh.. Cuz i tink too much ler.. Duno why started tinking.. n landy wus lyke shocked.. so is his gang.. suddenly..everyone wus so quiet..n staring at me..=( haiz.. reali sAd..

tml napfa.. haiz.. nv been practising.. haiz..so i dun reali expect myself to do well lorh.. haiz.. todae econs teacher said this sat muz haf econs makeup!! oh man.. i wana slp in one lorh.. now make me wake up early in the morn on my bdae.. how bad can it be?? arrgh..=(

this is getting sadder.. gotta go ler.. i feel so slpy..=(

naPfa =D

Hey hey i am back again.. Heez.. Todae finali completed my physical fitness test.. Muahahaha.. I m so hapIe..=D Guess wat? I haf a silver *hurhurhur* Sho hapi sia.. i haven been passing since sec one lorh.. LoL.. STEVEN!! i finali can do inclined pullup ler.. haha..=P i did THREE todae.. Okay.. i noe ttz little.. but itz a BIG achievement for sumone whu cant even do one for three years..okay? WEll.. i m doing sum of the retests nxt tue.. Muz train hard ler.. I m retesting 2.4km to get an A.. my target less than 14 mins.. wahaha.. then.. retesting inclined pullups.. i wan at least a C... ambitious?? hmm then.. shuttlerun.. my timing sux.. oni a D... i wan a C too.. n lastly.. sit n reach.. wahaha.. i m basically retesting everyting lah.. hurhurhur... I still rmb last time..during sec four.. i used to giv up so easily.. n steven preached me until i cried..feeling so useless..haha.. now... i lyke so kiasu.. diaoz.. well gona sae a BIG THANK YOU steven=D

Hmm..though i hao bu rong yi cleared my test.. haiz.. Dear lyke nt sharing my joy.. he is too busy to even care.. =( sad lorh.. well.. he did quite well for his test todae too..hapi for him=) hmm.. i now so stressed out with studies.. can die ler lah.. tml nidda go vjc for the stupid comp thing again.. n i gt a econ test on thurs.. n a gp essay due on thurs.. n fri i gt gp n maths test.. wat the.. i m reali dying ler.. =(

Gotta go pia my proj work ler.. 'Cher said my PI draft is nt up to standard.. but i m reali too stressed to do aneting properly.. Jer.. wher are u when i nid u most kor?=,(

sIck n dyiNg =(

Ahhhh!!! I reali m dying ler.. I m coughing lyke hell.. Sumtimes i feel tt i cld juz vomit blood soon. NaH.. dun ask me to see doc. Dun waste money. Wad for waste money to take sum drugs? =S hmm.. yarh.. i m stubborn. I juz pissed dear off. But i nid to save up now. Gona b quite broke this mth.. I nidda save up for my frens' bdays dun i? haiz.. Besides i hate taking medicines. They make u drowsy..weak..to the extent tt u cant do work.. I dun wan!! i still nidda catch up on lotsa tings. Wat if.. i visit the doc, n he dianogsed it as sth else? Wldnt it b beta to b ignorant? Oh man.. here my cough cum again.. haiz.. Gona lose my voice soon again. haiz.. Later still nidda go sch for PW group discussion. Sian~

Hmm.. Update for this week.. I din haf enuff slp..n rest. i tink ttz why i m sick bah. Haish. Well.. had my 2.4km run this week. Haiz. I m re-running. I m disappointed at my timing though it already secures a high B. Well.. I tink i can do beta.. ttz why when i finish my run, i went to tell my teacher i will rerun.. Okay.. i noe i m crazy. Ttz wat my frenz told me. I juz wana do my best. Can't i? okay.. Then.. gotten back my econs test. 15 outta 25.. woohoo~ i passed even w/o studying. But still i m nt hapi. I wana do well.. maths.. haiz.. i nid lotsa practices.. Geog.. i still handling well..=) In order to conc properly, i haf withdrew frm all comp. haha. clever? haha.. ttz the opportunity cost i tink >.< Alright.. gona go prepare for sch liao.. Bb~